Saturday, July 2, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Here in MN it's supposed to be Spring but we woke up to snow on the ground. Seems like we can't get out of Winter and move onto Spring much like we can't move out of the homestudy process! Urg!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
My grandpa was asking us about how our adoption was going. With his beautiful baby blue eyes he said "Make me a great grandpa." If he only knew how much I hope and pray each day that my grandparents will live long enough for me to make them GREAT grandparents! He then proceeded to tell me how one of the ladies at the senior center has 40 great grandchildren. With me being the oldest grandchild and the only one who is married -I don't think he will reach that goal. However, I can just see him going around and sharing with everyone he knows when he finally becomes a GREAT grandpa.
I can't wait for the day when I get to personally call my grandpa and tell him he has become a GREAT grandpa. Whether you build your family in traditional or non-traditional ways everyone should be able to experience that feeling.
I love you grandpa!
Monday, March 21, 2011
The planner in me is having a problem with adoption. My internal scheduler is having a hard time deciphering the time frame. And the patience part of my brain is getting lots of exercise.
I get frustrated when you go to start a baby registry and it asks me for my due date. I'm having a hard time finding gender neutral clothing and bedding. And it's hard to not even know what season we will be bringing a baby home.
In the end I know it will all be worth it!
Welcome if you are reading for the first time. After suffering from infertility my husband and I have just completed our home study. (we are waiting for our social worker to finish writing it) We will be adopting an infant domestically at some point in the future. Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Endometriosis has cost me my fertility, caused me pain since I was very young, and required me to have several major surgeries. There is still a lot that is unknown about this disease. For more information please visit the National Endometriosis Association.
Monday, February 21, 2011
My friend Mel and her husband are in the same boat that we were in this fall. They are saving for IVF. I wish I had a million dollars that I could give to deserving couples. She deserves to become a mother just like so many other wonderful women in my life.
You can follow her journey at her blog "Our Journey to be a Mommy and Daddy." On her site she has a link to a fund for her IVF and readers can donate. I have made a donation and only wish I could do more. If any readers would like to check it out I am sure she would appreciate it!
For those of you new to my blog you can get a good recap with this post. I appreciate you visiting and wish you nothing but the best in your own IF journeys. It's an unfortunate club that we are in but surround yourself with wonderful people and believe that your path eventual has an end that you will be at peace with.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Do you know anyone going through infertility and/or considering adoption? If so, please let them know about RESOLVE's upcoming Infertility and Adoption Family Building Conference on Saturday, March 12, 2011. Early bird pricing ends February 25th.
Exploring Paths of Hope: The Midwest Region of RESOLVE's 27th Annual Infertility and Adoption Family Building Conference March 12, 2011 * 7:30 a.m. - 5:00 p.m. * Golden Valley, MN
•FREE expert advice from Reproductive Endocrinologists, Adoption Agencies, Alternative Therapy Practitioners, Attorneys, Psychologists and other fertility and adoption specialists •FREE giveaway -- over $35,000 of prizes to be given away •19 infertility and adoption workshops •Largest conference of its type in the Midwest
The Midwest Region of RESOLVE is proud to present its annual Family Building Conference on Saturday, March 12, 2011. This conference is designed to address the medical and emotional issues associated with infertility and adoption. Attendees will learn about new treatments, be able to talk directly to doctors and specialists, explore parenting options and network with others experiencing infertility. Medical experts, attorneys, counseling professionals, adoption agencies and those who have experienced infertility firsthand will provide information regarding all aspects of your family building journey. Over $35,000 worth of infertility and adoption services and merchandise to be given away. You must be present to enter and to win. For more information and to register, visit their website.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
I am also nervous about our dog. He is two and still a little puppyish; we're going to have to wear him down the day before. I am sure things will be fine but I think I just have too much time to sit around and think about it. The exciting part? It means our home study is almost DONE!!!!!
Adoption update: We have our two day parenting class Thursday and Friday of this week. We are scheduled for our car seat class on Saturday the 26th and we need to schedule our home visit.
Surgery update: I'm recovering really well. I'm able to run short errands or go for short visits which is helping me keep sane. My husband and I had a wonderful Valentine's weekend with a couple wonderful little dates. I'm having hot flashes which is a good thing; they are annoying more than anything! I go back to work next Wednesday for just 4 hours a day. We'll see how that goes!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Sure there was a little while in November that I had to be sad about it but my feelings have come full circle and I am very excited about our adoption. I know in my heart that there is a baby out there for us and we will be united at some point. I finally feel like the uncertainty of our infertility has ended! God planned it this way. We were meant to adopt and I can't wait to welcome a baby into our family!
Friday, January 28, 2011
We had our second meeting with our social worker the day before my surgery! It went really well! We are very excited about how well everything is going so far. We discussed our autobiographies we had written. She just had a few questions on things she found interesting or things she needed more information on. I was worried she would just focus on everything negative but she didn't.
We really like our social worker! She just has so much wisdom and you can tell she loves what she does. She tells lots of stories and gives parental advice that I find refreshing. The next step is our parenting classes the middle of February. With as well as my surgery went I am relived and feel confident that I will be able to sit through them. We also have to do a few online classes.
My recovery is going well. I feel better every day. I move around more on my own and I am less dependant on my husband. I couldn't have done this without him though, he has been WONDERFUL!!! I have had a few visitors which helps the time go faster. Yesterday I went to the doctor to have my stitches out and I was EXHAUSTED when I came home. That was enough excitement for me!
We're excited about the future!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Recap of 2010: February 3 - laparatomy - ran into complications, endo was much worse than suspected, surgeons managed to save a portion of my last ovary, in the hospital 5 days, recovery at home 5 weeks. (dropped by short term disability due to preexisting conditions)
March - started 6 months of crazy lady shots to stop the spread of endo
April - met with first IVF clinic, felt like a number, not personal at all, started to realize the financial implications of IVF and started to weigh the risks vs benefits.
May - met with second IVF clinic, felt much better and more optimistic, we were given a 40% chance that IVF would work
June - started on new insurance that would pay a PORTION of IVF drugs and possibly some procedures
July - last crazy lady shot, now just waiting for a "normal" AF and had to lose 10 more lbs
September - started to bleed, hmmm, must be really bad after being on lupron for 6 months? is this normal?
October - ok, bleeding for 6 weeks, VERY heavy, THIS IS NOT NORMAL!!!
October 22nd, my WONDERFUL friends through us a fundraiser for our IVF, we were SO blessed to have them help out with the financial burden we were facing
November 10 - ultrasound shows thickening of uterine wall and polyps
Nobember 18 - D and C (2 day recovery)
December 1st - Follow up with doctor. BAD NEWS. She consulted with the IVF clinic and they are not willing to even attempt IVF. There is too much fluid around the ovary, the ovary is still connected to the bowel, and the abnormal uterine wall would most likely not withstand an implanting egg. Hubs and I grieve the loss of our biological child. (we expected the news but it was very hard to hear).
December 15 - Attend orientation with adoption agency
December 20th - receive first portion of the adoption home study. Consultation with the surgeon who will do my hysterectomy and schedule it for Jan. 21
Have a WONDERFUL NEW YEAR!!!! 2011 is where it is at!!!