It's out of my control now

It's out of my control now but I feel like crossing my fingers and crossing my toes that we get good news on Wednesday! We have our post-op appointment. I am hoping my OB has compared notes with my RE and they are going to have a beautiful plan in place to get me pregnant with my own biological child! Ok, now I might be going overboard with optimism! I DO hope they are honest with us about what our chances are so we can make an educated decision.

As if I wasn't going through enough I got my "friend" only a week after my D and C. Could my body cut me a LITTLE break. I was in SO much pain I had to take prescription pain killers a couple times (this is not normal people). I didn't know that I could get my "friend" after surgery so I called the on call doctor and her response was "take a pregnancy test." URG, if I COULD get pregnant I wouldn't be IN this situation. Not to mention doing the baby dance has been out of the question not only after surgery but plenty BEFORE surgery because i have been BLEEDING for THREE MONTHS!!!!!! There, I feel better!

Thanks for listening! Praying for and crossing every appendage possible for good news!

Hope

I'm starting to get the hang of this blogging thing, learning every day. I have found a lot of helpful blogs and advice at this site - so thank you!

As I am just beginning my journey of IVF there are so many questions and emotions running through my mind. Will it hurt? Will it work? What will I do if it does not work?

At this point I have just chosen to stay positive and go in with the attitude of "if it is meant to be it's meant to be." Don't get me wrong there is also part of me that is just terrified as to how I will react if it doesn't work. Will I feel like I let people down? Will I feel resentful that I will never have a child of my own?

At no one's fault, I don't have many people that I know personally going through similar situations so It's been so helpful to reach out to the IF world through blogging. Thanks to everyone who shares their very personal journey in hopes that it will help others.