I had my last crazy lady shot yesterday! AHH, momentous, 6 months of shots over with! Once a month I would have to leave work early to make my monthly visit, get my weight, get my shot, and usually a small chit chat with my doctor; then I would turn around on my way out and make my next appointment. It became routine.
Since this was my last shot I only had a lab only appointment and I was thoroughly disappointed when some stranger [nurse] called my name. I was already to say "thank you" and "good bye" and "see you when I am pregnant" to my usual nurse whom I had bonded with over the last 6 months. She knew everything that I had gone through, she knew my cycle in and out, she knew all the symptoms I had been having, etc. While I am sure this stranger-nurse also could read my story I didn't feel like she had been with me through it all. To her I was just another needle in the arm!
And finally, when it was all said and done, she gave me a "good luck!"
As I walked out of the doctor's office I paused and became teary eyed.
Did she understand the ramifications that "good luck" may have? Did she understand that "good luck" meant that my next visit to that office would hopefully be to hear a baby's heart beat? Did she understand that if I did NOT have "good luck" that meant that I would be back only for my yearly visits and probably eventually for a hysterectomy because I would deem my girl parts useless and nothing but a nuisance?
I am sure that IVF is mostly science and that in all actuality there is little luck involved. However, to a point I believe there is some luck, faith, hope, karma, fate; however you would like to put it, involved.
It's just funny how much that one little saying in just one little moment of my day had SO much meaning behind it! So to all my IF friends "good luck!"
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Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Good luck!
I had my last crazy lady shot yesterday! AHH, momentous, 6 months of shots over with! Once a month I would have to leave work early to make my monthly visit, get my weight, get my shot, and usually a small chit chat with my doctor; then I would turn around on my way out and make my next appointment. It became routine.
Since this was my last shot I only had a lab only appointment and I was thoroughly disappointed when some stranger [nurse] called my name. I was already to say "thank you" and "good bye" and "see you when I am pregnant" to my usual nurse whom I had bonded with over the last 6 months. She knew everything that I had gone through, she knew my cycle in and out, she knew all the symptoms I had been having, etc. While I am sure this stranger-nurse also could read my story I didn't feel like she had been with me through it all. To her I was just another needle in the arm!
And finally, when it was all said and done, she gave me a "good luck!"
As I walked out of the doctor's office I paused and became teary eyed.
Did she understand the ramifications that "good luck" may have? Did she understand that "good luck" meant that my next visit to that office would hopefully be to hear a baby's heart beat? Did she understand that if I did NOT have "good luck" that meant that I would be back only for my yearly visits and probably eventually for a hysterectomy because I would deem my girl parts useless and nothing but a nuisance?
I am sure that IVF is mostly science and that in all actuality there is little luck involved. However, to a point I believe there is some luck, faith, hope, karma, fate; however you would like to put it, involved.
It's just funny how much that one little saying in just one little moment of my day had SO much meaning behind it! So to all my IF friends "good luck!"
Monday, June 21, 2010
Crazy Lady Shots
Tomorrow I go for my 5th $600 crazy lady shot! I call them my crazy lady shot because it is supposed to make your hormones go crazy and cause hot flashes. So far the side affects have been minimal. However, every time I go and get one I have to meet with my doctor to discuss how crazy they are making me! It's nice to see her though, she always asks where we are at in choosing an IVF clinic, etc.
I like to believe that my doctor really does care if we have chosen a clinic yet. And I am sure that she DOES want the IVF to work for us! I don't really care if she is just giving me a line of bull because it makes me feel better knowing that she is looking out for my best interest.
In a way these shots may be preparing me for IVF. I will get used to being even MORE of a pin cushion and it may soften the blow of the sticker shock for the IVF drugs. I mean $600? The needle IS pretty long but that's a monthly rent payment. Luckily insurance pays 80% because this is still considered treatment for my ovarian cysts. But all in all this all is preparing me for all those shots in the butt.
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